Even though I think my feelings are valid and it can help to acknowledge them, I’m also sick of not living my life as fully as I could. I mean, I’m already 1/3 of the way through my life, and what have I even done with it besides marrying my soulmate?
I need to move forward now.
And in order to do that, I’ll have to accept that I may never be completely free of this void that follows me. I may never be able to experience perfect happiness because of it and that really sucks. But I also can’t use that as an excuse anymore.
It would be better to start on the path to being partially happy, than it would be to continue sitting in misery while I wait for happiness to find me.
Another thing I’ll have to accept is that 2020 hates everybody, and I’m certainly no exception to that rule. So when my plans inevitably get ruined I need to get back up as fast as I can and look for another way.
Resilience is key here.
All of that is definitely easier said than done and I’m not exactly sure where to start on my path to being a happier me. But practicing gratitude seems like it could be a good first step in the right direction.
